My hubby is being very encouraging to me to explore for myself, and so I am here in this more/less anonymous way to test… mainly myself, to see if certain things continue to be of very pleasant interest to just… me, to see if the stimulation he has placed in my curious mind can become reality in a way that I can enjoy for myself. He has given me so many fantasies that are just… interestingly pleasant to think about, to perhaps explore for myself in a way that is safe enough without identifying myself to specifically in case something doesn't work out quite right. He tells me that I should experiment with whatever cums up (haha) from the depths of my mind, to explore whatever it is, to have it all around me, in me, on me, and to push it, to pull it, to roll it around in whatever way feels nice to me in my mind, and in my bodeeee :) If you are a smart, intellectual oriented person with certain experience… maybe you would understand :)